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Monday, February 05, 2007
breaking up, spreading love, and other hippy dippy crap
i feel like my last blog was really gooey and mushy and for that i apologize. with that in mind... this will most likely be another love fest. sorry.
for some reason, maybe it is the season (you know valentine's day being around the corner and all) all i can think about is love. i connect everything to it. it is probibly because i am about to leave boone and start a new chapter in my life, leaving behind some people who i truely charish.
the odd thing about all this love that i have been feeling lately, is that i lost love for the one i supposedly felt the most for. i broke up with my boyfriend (of about four years off and on) this weekend.
it made me really wonder if i just don't have the capacity to love people... friends, enemies, strangers... while i love one single person in a romantic way. now i'm not proposing that i become a swinger or anything, but how do you fully devote yourself to one person while attempting to be accessable to everyone else at the same time?
at some point someone will be neglected and why should i force all of my love and devotion on one person when i can spread it around and provide an ear, a shoulder, or a friend for a bunch of people. i'm sure there has to be a balance but i don't want it right now. there are too many people i still need to learn from for me to be limiting my relationships.
